daylight

today my alarm went off at 5:48 and interrupted a panicky dream. i've been having a lot of panicky dreams lately. bastian always says something terribly logical like the time i told him about a dream where this car i was driving bent in half because the back wheel got caught on a pothole and he said, "see, that's the point i'd realize it was a dream." THAT'S what i have to deal with, honestly.

the strange thing about teaching in the first period is you get done and it's 9:00a and god, you can get a lot of things done.

right now our building's being painted so we have scaffolding all around and our windows are covered with green plastic so everything has a green tinge to it. i imagine it's not terribly flattering, but luckily for now (i guess) we're only home at night.

i really want to take a vacation somewhere. what great timing, the second week of the semester and i'm stir-crazy. but then of course i see things like this:

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and i want to visit the ocean. i've never been a big ocean person mostly because it terrifies me, but i love watching documentaries of the ocean and dear god, if i miss shark week this year while in the US i'm going to freak out. 

one of my students said how student life is different from work life because you don't wake up regularly. today i had to get up at 6, but tomorrow i don't have to be at campus until 11:10. wth is that? of course i'm going to wake up by 7 anyhow, but you really notice in your mid-twenties that you can't mess around with sleep patterns anymore. 

speaking of which, i'm already mentally referring to myself as a 26 year old. it's not true! i still have a month of 25 left! ok i promised not to overtly mention my white-people's problems. and i still get told on a very regular basis how young and prepubescent i look.