And then it dawned on me

I'm kind of having a bad year.

I realized that today.

I would write off 2012 and be happy it's nearly halfway over if it weren't for the fact we're getting married this year. That seems to be its only redeeming quality. Everything else has been terrible, terrible, terrible.

Well not everything. I guess that was a little melodramatic. But only a little. I do have a wonderful best friend-life partner-fiancé who is the absolute best person in the universe. Everyone says that about his or her partner and I'm glad because that's how it should be.

We were standing in our kitchen when I said, "I'm kind of having a bad year."

I'd just realized.

Bastian came and hugged me and wasn't as shocked as I was, so I realized he'd known the whole time.
"We've been through a lot."
"We've been through more than most people ever do in their entire lives."

There are pros to this. We have handled everything that life has given us. We have seen each other in extremely difficult times. We have done all of this together and even though we love each other very much and have always understood from the first day of being together that we no longer face anything alone, it has been extremely challenging. We met when we were already in our early 20s but we have grown up together. Some parts have been funny and some parts have been sad.


This weekend we:
1. Visited the Asian market under the Hauptbahnhof to stock up on supplies.
2. Got some ice cream despite cold temperatures (me--mint Oreo, B--chocolate brownie) and walked to a flower garden by the Elbe River and took some pictures.
3. Made spicy peanut noodles and kimchi.
4. Stayed up too late watching Lost (we are only on the first season).
4.5 Dipped chocolate in peanut butter while watching Lost (Bastian the Philistine was not a fan).
5. B went to a shop to get butter for me on Sunday so I could make strawberry shortcake.
6. Ate strawberry shortcake.
7. Treated Sunday night as a Saturday night by staying up late whispering.